It's There

At times, I don't feel like I'm needed anymore
I don't feel like I am worthy of anyone's time
I've become everybody's shock absorber
That when it's time for me to absorb my own
I cannot because I was done absorbing everybody's
Don't get me wrong
I don't blame people for choosing me to be their absorber
In fact, I am happy with that
It's just that
Lately, I have been suffocated with all of these
I don't want to not care
Bur I don't want to care so much
Because I get hurt twice as they are
And it lives with me
It haunts me before I go to sleep
It haunts me when I wake up
It haunts me when I'm eating
It basically haunts me everywhere, every time